Saturday, January 24, 2015

I see the silver lining

Every cloud has its silver lining but it is sometimes a little difficult to get it to the mint.
-Don Marquis

Getting back on the horse can be difficult, but one must try or live in defeat.  To live in defeat is not an acceptable way of life.  Someone once told me you never have to get back to the basics you never leave them.  I left them and now it time to get back.

1) Weight loss comes down to burning more calories than you take in.
2) Plan my meals and follow my plan.
3) Get active.

So far I have done well this week I have met my calorie goal to be under 2700 cal per day.  I am trying to keep a positive mind set and with my food I am doing well.  As with my other health issues the sciatica is killing me, I realize that my weight is directly pushing on the nerve and it kills me when stand I have to start back to doing the exercises that were given to me in rehab.

So that’s the next phase to get back to doing.  The road to recovery sometimes can be long and twisting but I have to remember it’s the journey not the destination and while there are ups and downs I have to find that little thing every day that makes it worthwhile.  Right now, looking out at the snow, seeing the birds and hearing Kojack’s soft snoring makes me fell content and that ok in my book.

I am out of here.


Saturday, January 17, 2015

The darkest hour is just before the dawn

There is a beautiful saying amongst the Irish peasantry to inspire hope under adverse circumstances:- "Remember," they say, "that the darkest hour of all. is the hour before day."

Well now the holidays sucked I gained and gained.  When I finally got the courage to get back on the scale I was over 400 lbs.  There goes my plan I had; I was doing well what happened.  Who knows but I came to the realization that I was going the wrong way.  What do I have a death wish?  The vision I had of me laying on the bathroom floor came back to me in flight.  That’s how they were going to find me.

Thursday (January 15) I got back on the scale.  I need to do this I want to live and grow old and do things not just sit in my chair and watch the world go by.  Sometimes it the darkest before the dawn, I hope so because I am in a dark place and need to see the light.

I was always told I needed a gratitude list:

1) I am alive!!!
2) I am sober
3) I have a family that cares
4) I have friends that care
5) I have Mandy
6) As Jim use to say “You have food, a place to sleep clean sheet, you never had it so good” I have all three.
7) I have a great job and good people around me
8) I have money in the bank for retirement
9) My mind still functions
10) Kojack the faithful cat is by my side

So its time.  Lord know its time.  All I have to do is ask God in the morn for a good day and thank him at night and put the next foot in front of me.

Let start it over again!!!