I ran across a blog today called Can You Stay For Dinner and read Audie's October 21, 2014 post. Its about what she has learned the second time losing weight. It was a amazing read that made me think about my struggles. Someone once told me there was a difference between knowledge and wisdom. While all around me I had access to more information than I knew what to do with about my weight things did not change. There is a prayer were it talks about accepting the things I cannot change and the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Her post made me that about the wisdom to know the difference, powerful insight that I needed.
Procrastination. The bane of my existence. Why do something today when you can do it tomorrow. It seems that I procrastinate because outside distractions interfere with my long-term goals. In a sense I sabotage my own success, which is really strange. I will make plans to exercise or to diet but find my attention drawn toward attractions like the television or the refrigerator. I am hiding from either feels or situations I really don't want to handle which only leads to more discomfort. However when I finally do face the situation it not that bad, which is totally baffling.
So I say I am going to work on my procrastination and ironic thing is that I off dealing with my procrastination. Get me a couch.
This leads me back to the serenity prayer. This simple three-fold prayer to a power greater than myself asks for three things:
A simple prayer that holds great meaning. Courage to change things in my life might lead only to heartbreak and suffering when I apply it to something that is out of my hands. Serenity in accepting bad situations and treatment that could be changed might leave that me to be trapped and helpless within the my current mess. And the wisdom to figure out the one from the other is useless if not acted upon.
The prayer show me that these simple concepts and counsels me to stay calm in the face of matters I can do nothing about and tells me to decisive moves in the face of those I can. It serves to clarify my thoughts during times of trouble when all is confusion, suffering, and doubt in that it provides an answer, or at least a tool that can be used to help find an answer, to what can be done and what cannot.
So as Audie concluded "It’s time to feel, and really be, OK. And that’s not something you can put off. Not even for a day."
Time to start and change the thing I can.....
Stats for the week
Weight when I first started blogging: 431.0 lbs
Weight when I started re-start: 422.6 lbs
Last weigh-in: 390.0 lbs
Current weight: 387.4 lbs
Loss for the week: 2.6 lbs
Total loss since re-start: 32.6 lbs
Goal for coming week: Met my goal
I'm out of here